I went to the doctor today for my followup appointment. They confirmed that I do have interstital cystitis. It's going to involve a lot. Medication (which is through the roof expensive - to the tune of $200 a MONTH!), diet change (no more chocolate and soda kids!) and a twice a week appointment at the doctor's for the next six weeks. UGH!
So, I am relieved that I'm not insane...but, I'm really worried about affording the medication. I don't know how long I'm required to take it. Just pray that we're able to figure all this out. It's going to drastically change our lives. Probably for the good and definitely healthier!
Thanks for all your good wishes and prayers! I feel quite protected and loved when I have you guys around!
Love Ya,
Jen
Friday, March 31, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
happy birthday to us
This was a picture taken at Castles N' Coasters. We went there on Sunday and had a great time. I was so proud of Sam - he rode EVERY ride - even the roller coaster with two loops and a corkscrew! I actually enjoyed sharing my birthday with my son this year. He is getting so big - I cannot believe he is 5! We had his birthday party last night and got his hamster (Morris) yesterday morning. We both had pretty great birthdays seperately, but the one we shared together on Sunday is a memory I'll always cherish!
Saturday, March 25, 2006
perspective
Isn't it amazing what the Lord can do in just one short day? Yesterday at this time, I was curled up in a ball, sobbing my eyes out. Today, I have had a pretty good day. I did a garage sale with my mom, made a little $$$, went my niece's birthday (got a sunburn - in MARCH), went shopping with my birthday $$$ and had a really nice evening with my family.
Perspective is an interesting tool that God uses to slap me upside the head. I am not dying, my life is not over, I am not out on the street. I have wonderful friends who love me and support me at every turn. I have a fabulous husband who loves me and loves me enough to know when to stay away and when to be at my side. I have three healthy, beautiful children who love me so much that they want to "kick that lady in the butt...", even though all I did was yell at them all day. I have the best family EVER - encouraging, supportive, protective - eveything you could hope for. We have a nice house with a great deal on the rent. We are not destitute, we are not poor, we are not losing anything.
This was really no one's fault. Frustrating, but true. The lady who messed up the information, didn't do it on purpose. She had no malicious intent. She made a mistake.....can I say that I haven't?
So, life goes on. We are going to continue to rent our house, pray that housing prices start dropping and cling tight to the perspective that God has showed me today. Thank you all for your kind words and phone calls during this time. It meant more to me than you'll ever know.
Perspective is an interesting tool that God uses to slap me upside the head. I am not dying, my life is not over, I am not out on the street. I have wonderful friends who love me and support me at every turn. I have a fabulous husband who loves me and loves me enough to know when to stay away and when to be at my side. I have three healthy, beautiful children who love me so much that they want to "kick that lady in the butt...", even though all I did was yell at them all day. I have the best family EVER - encouraging, supportive, protective - eveything you could hope for. We have a nice house with a great deal on the rent. We are not destitute, we are not poor, we are not losing anything.
This was really no one's fault. Frustrating, but true. The lady who messed up the information, didn't do it on purpose. She had no malicious intent. She made a mistake.....can I say that I haven't?
So, life goes on. We are going to continue to rent our house, pray that housing prices start dropping and cling tight to the perspective that God has showed me today. Thank you all for your kind words and phone calls during this time. It meant more to me than you'll ever know.
Friday, March 24, 2006
the door is shut
Our financing fell through due to misrepresentation on the part of the lender....I am devastated....If there is one thing I hate more than anything else it's being lied to....The woman who handled our loan totally misled us....please don't call right now....I'm WAY too emotional to talk about it.....thanks for your prayers, I could really use them right now, however I really do not wish to ever talk about this again....thanks.....we are not going to be able to buy a home at this time....
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
update
Well, I went to the doctor today. I found out that I might have a condition called "interstitial cystitis." This is when certain foods eat away the lining of the bladder causing pits to form. Over time, this causes the person to have to go to the bathroom between 10-20 times a day and over 4 times at night. I have been dealing with this for about two years now and I am DONE!
So, I go in for more tests next Friday. Hopefully, this is what it is and I can get treatment. Otherwise, I'll have to have more tests to find out what it is.
Unfortunately, if I do have it, I will no longer be able to have any food that I like anymore. You can't have soda, chocolate, most sugars, spicy foods or fruit. So, YEA! But, I guess it's worth it, just to feel better!
Thanks for your prayers - all went well!
So, I go in for more tests next Friday. Hopefully, this is what it is and I can get treatment. Otherwise, I'll have to have more tests to find out what it is.
Unfortunately, if I do have it, I will no longer be able to have any food that I like anymore. You can't have soda, chocolate, most sugars, spicy foods or fruit. So, YEA! But, I guess it's worth it, just to feel better!
Thanks for your prayers - all went well!
Monday, March 20, 2006
truth
Telling the truth is hard isn't it? Sometimes it is just a matter of giving someone an answer to a question, but sometimes it can go much deeper. It can go into matters of the heart, how you're feeling, or just being realistic. I tend to tie the word truth in with the words honest and realistic. Everyone has their "truth" and sometimes that differs with someone else's "truth", even in the same situation. I am facing three areas in my life that are requiring some form of truth right now. Just trying to get my thoughts in order, so bear with me.......
HEALTH
I am going to the doctor on Wednesday. I have really been struggling with some health issues lately, and it's causing me a lot of pain/discomfort. So, I have made an appointment and I hope to have some answers by the end of it all. I really do not like to go to the doctor, as you all know. But, to tell the truth, I am so miserable I guess desperation has set in. I don't really want to go into it here, as it's personal. If you have a great need to know, just give me a call or email me. To be honest, I am terrified of the answer I may get. I know realistically that it's probably an easy fix, but I'm a glass half empty type of gal..... I am also having heart palpatations again and my migraines are getting worse. I don't know what to do, but I'm just going to lay it all out there for the doctor and see what happens.
HOME
We are still looking at houses. We put an offer in on two this weekend. The first was already sold, and the second we are countering back and forth. I have to say that this is quite stressful for me, and I almost hope the deal just falls through so that I don't have to worry about it any more. I have a crazy week in store for me, with three birthdays and a weekend of parties. So, I really don't need any more stress! I just really want to be in my own home, to settle in and not worry about this kids eating in the living room! To be able to paint and decorate and not live in a sterile white house! YUCK!
HAPPINESS
This is the hardest truth for me to deal with right now. Why does being happy take so much effort? I really thought that once I moved to Phoenix and settled in, I would be happy. But now, Matt and Chris are moving, my parents are discouraged and depressed about church and life in general, and its been a real struggle trying to fit in at church. Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy to be here, but these things are just wearing me down. I know that happiness is a choice, and I have really been trying to just be happy with what I have. But, I have to say that it's getting harder to paste a smile on my face! There are other things in my life that are challenging my happpiness right now, but I'm not at liberty to share.
The truth? Life is tough right now, now just for me, but for everyone. So, don't freak out and think I'm going to jump off the nearest building (Jenell). I just needed to vent a little and to let you all know what's really going on. That's the whole point of this blogging thing....right???????
HEALTH
I am going to the doctor on Wednesday. I have really been struggling with some health issues lately, and it's causing me a lot of pain/discomfort. So, I have made an appointment and I hope to have some answers by the end of it all. I really do not like to go to the doctor, as you all know. But, to tell the truth, I am so miserable I guess desperation has set in. I don't really want to go into it here, as it's personal. If you have a great need to know, just give me a call or email me. To be honest, I am terrified of the answer I may get. I know realistically that it's probably an easy fix, but I'm a glass half empty type of gal..... I am also having heart palpatations again and my migraines are getting worse. I don't know what to do, but I'm just going to lay it all out there for the doctor and see what happens.
HOME
We are still looking at houses. We put an offer in on two this weekend. The first was already sold, and the second we are countering back and forth. I have to say that this is quite stressful for me, and I almost hope the deal just falls through so that I don't have to worry about it any more. I have a crazy week in store for me, with three birthdays and a weekend of parties. So, I really don't need any more stress! I just really want to be in my own home, to settle in and not worry about this kids eating in the living room! To be able to paint and decorate and not live in a sterile white house! YUCK!
HAPPINESS
This is the hardest truth for me to deal with right now. Why does being happy take so much effort? I really thought that once I moved to Phoenix and settled in, I would be happy. But now, Matt and Chris are moving, my parents are discouraged and depressed about church and life in general, and its been a real struggle trying to fit in at church. Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy to be here, but these things are just wearing me down. I know that happiness is a choice, and I have really been trying to just be happy with what I have. But, I have to say that it's getting harder to paste a smile on my face! There are other things in my life that are challenging my happpiness right now, but I'm not at liberty to share.
The truth? Life is tough right now, now just for me, but for everyone. So, don't freak out and think I'm going to jump off the nearest building (Jenell). I just needed to vent a little and to let you all know what's really going on. That's the whole point of this blogging thing....right???????
Thursday, March 16, 2006
me and my shadow
Just another fun pic we took the other night. Cais and I have been working hard on our time alone together. Although we don't get it very often, when we are able to get away, just the two of us, we sure have a good time. I am looking forward to having a really special day, just her and I, for her birthday next month. I'm already starting to make plans! I vowed to do this every year when she turned three and then life happened. So, I'm making a new vow to do this with her every year starting this year. She's going to be seven and that is just unreal for me. Enjoy the picture!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
wil's new "do"
Wil got his first haircut on Monday. He was a nightmare - screamed the entire time, but the end result sure was cute! He looks so much older - but that hair of his is still blonde! Enjoy!
Saturday, March 11, 2006
weekend reflections
Well...it's raining! And raining and raining and raining! It started at around 2-3 am and hasn't stopped! I think it's trying to make up for the 142 days of no rain... But, it's great. I was beginning to worry that the weather was just a little too perfect here! HA!
We were supposed to start stretching ourselves by going to a breakfast this morning at our new church (Gilbert Vineyard) and J woke up this morning with PINK EYE! ARGH! So, we had to nix those plans and are just sitting at home listening to the rain and actually enjoying the peace of the day.
My parents and brother's family are out of town this weekend, so we are having some nice one-on-one time with my grandma who is here visiting from Denver. She is so much fun to be with. She is 87 years old and still walks about a mile a day! I can only hope to be this spry in my old age!
Have you ever heard the song "100 years"? There is a line in there that says, "I'm 33 for a moment.....33 and you're on your way..." It's really not my favorite song, but I really like the whole point of the song that time is really short and we should live life because we only have a hundred years to live. I'm turning 33 in a week or so and I can't believe it's gone so quickly. I feel like I'm on the verge of really becoming who God made me to be and I do feel like I'm "on my way" at 33.
House hunting is proceeding. We looked at six houses this week and are going to look at three more this weekend. We're hoping that we can find something with four bedrooms, but the prices here are unbelievable! I looked at a 1400 sq. ft. home that they wanted $265 for! ARGH!
Anyway, looking forward to a nice, peaceful day. Hoping the same for all of you! These are all the "deep thoughts" I could come up with today. As you can see, I am having a very shallow day - HA! Love you all!
We were supposed to start stretching ourselves by going to a breakfast this morning at our new church (Gilbert Vineyard) and J woke up this morning with PINK EYE! ARGH! So, we had to nix those plans and are just sitting at home listening to the rain and actually enjoying the peace of the day.
My parents and brother's family are out of town this weekend, so we are having some nice one-on-one time with my grandma who is here visiting from Denver. She is so much fun to be with. She is 87 years old and still walks about a mile a day! I can only hope to be this spry in my old age!
Have you ever heard the song "100 years"? There is a line in there that says, "I'm 33 for a moment.....33 and you're on your way..." It's really not my favorite song, but I really like the whole point of the song that time is really short and we should live life because we only have a hundred years to live. I'm turning 33 in a week or so and I can't believe it's gone so quickly. I feel like I'm on the verge of really becoming who God made me to be and I do feel like I'm "on my way" at 33.
House hunting is proceeding. We looked at six houses this week and are going to look at three more this weekend. We're hoping that we can find something with four bedrooms, but the prices here are unbelievable! I looked at a 1400 sq. ft. home that they wanted $265 for! ARGH!
Anyway, looking forward to a nice, peaceful day. Hoping the same for all of you! These are all the "deep thoughts" I could come up with today. As you can see, I am having a very shallow day - HA! Love you all!
Sunday, March 05, 2006
and the winner is.....
HA! I'm good....yea..yea..I'm good! I got four out of the five I predicted right! Not too shabby for just some random person! HA!
Man, if only I could get paid to do this stuff.......Hmmmmm......
Lots of love for Reese's speech. Very kind and classy. If only Joaquin had won....SNIFF! Oh well...at least Crash won for best movie! Hooray!
Man, if only I could get paid to do this stuff.......Hmmmmm......
Lots of love for Reese's speech. Very kind and classy. If only Joaquin had won....SNIFF! Oh well...at least Crash won for best movie! Hooray!
Friday, March 03, 2006
oscar picks
Again, just for fun...one of my favorite things to do...I used to have Oscar parties!
Best Picture - Crash
Best Actor - Joaquin Phoenix
Best Actress - Reece Witherspoon
Best Sup. Actor - George Clooney
Best Sup. Actress - Rachel Weise
I know that Brokeback Mountain is going to win in a lot of these categories, but I can dream if I want! HA! If you haven't seen "Walk the Line," you need to. It is a totally ridiculous shame that this movie wasn't nominated for Best Picture...smacks of fixing the winner....if you ask me!
Best Picture - Crash
Best Actor - Joaquin Phoenix
Best Actress - Reece Witherspoon
Best Sup. Actor - George Clooney
Best Sup. Actress - Rachel Weise
I know that Brokeback Mountain is going to win in a lot of these categories, but I can dream if I want! HA! If you haven't seen "Walk the Line," you need to. It is a totally ridiculous shame that this movie wasn't nominated for Best Picture...smacks of fixing the winner....if you ask me!
american idol
This is just for fun....
Here are my picks for the top 12 on American Idol:
Guys
Ace
Chris (my personal favorite)
Gedeon
Elliott
Taylor
Bucky
Girls
Lisa
Paris
Katherine
Kellie
Mandisa
Melissa
Next week: Will and Kevin will go for the boys and Kinnick and Ayla will go for the girls.
Chris is my favorite! It's so great to see somebody with the talent and relevancy for today's market. AND he sang Bon Jovi's "Wanted Dead or Alive" the first week....SIGH! He sang Fuel this week and was just amazing. Way to go! Not bad for a married guy with kids! HA!
Here are my picks for the top 12 on American Idol:
Guys
Ace
Chris (my personal favorite)
Gedeon
Elliott
Taylor
Bucky
Girls
Lisa
Paris
Katherine
Kellie
Mandisa
Melissa
Next week: Will and Kevin will go for the boys and Kinnick and Ayla will go for the girls.
Chris is my favorite! It's so great to see somebody with the talent and relevancy for today's market. AND he sang Bon Jovi's "Wanted Dead or Alive" the first week....SIGH! He sang Fuel this week and was just amazing. Way to go! Not bad for a married guy with kids! HA!
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