I QUIT!!!!

What a crappy day.....I am just having a bad one! Just want to quit both my jobs and stay at home and be a hermit!!!!

Tired

Today is a sad day. I just got a phone call from my best friend, Jenell. She told me that they have given her mom only a few weeks left to live. Noli,(her mom) has suffered from breast cancer for about 4 1/2 years. Her body is so tired and it's time to go home.

It's easy to say that but it's quite another to live on the other side of that sentiment. I am watching Jenell at one of her lowest points and I don't know what to say or do. I end up saying stupid things that don't mean anything. I just don't know what else to do...it's a helpless feeling.

I'm tired of watching people I love suffer from this disease. Noli isn't the only one who is suffering from cancer in my life. My cousin's husband Robert has been given his own diagnosis of brain cancer and he too has only a few weeks left. His wife (my cousin) died about 5 years ago from a rare form of cervical cancer. When/if he passes, he will leave behind two boys (11 and 8)parentless. This breaks my heart...as a mom it's almost unbearable to hear that.

Please keep both of these people in your prayers. Not only them, but their families as well.

Who knew??

Blah - I hate mornings! The only time I enjoy waking up early is if it is raining. But, I h;ave been trying to get some weight off and so exercise must come early in the morning. Just don't have time to do it any other time!

There is a new post going around on Facebook called "I've come to realize..." It's very interesting to read what people are writing there, so I thought I'd try it here.

I"ve come to realize that this year has been incredibly hard, but has also brought me into a closer relationship with God.

I've come to realize that my mom is an amazing woman and has incredible faith in God and in others.

I've come to realize that my dad is always going to be my daddy and I am so appreciative of all his love and support.

I've come to realize that my husband is one of the most amazing people I know and it is so great to see him finally be able to live out his dream of owning/running his own business.

I've come to realize that my sibling has hurt me beyond anything I could've ever dreamed, but I also have come to realize that only he is responsible for his life and his actions and I can no longer place the blame on anyone else. He has chosen his path, and while I may not agree, it is HIS choice.

I've come to realize that friends are more important to me than I thought.

I've come to realize that my kids are so cool and I cannot wait to see them grow up and become the amazing people that God is making them into.

I've also come to realize that J and I have had a huge influence on our children and that God is constantly working on us so that we can work with them.

I've come to realize that the reason why I dislike going to church so much has a lot to do with my own attitude rather than anyone or anything else.

I've come to realize that I am happy with my life and I need to live in that instead of always looking to the "what ifs" of life.

So, anyway - an interesting exercise for the day. Hope you all have a good one! Maybe try this one on your own and see what you realize!

So....here I go again....

I don't think anyone reads this blog anymore, but I'm doing this more for myself than for anyone else. I am feeling the need to blog again - to purge my soul, so to speak. I have always enjoyed writing, but have not had the time in the last couple of years to do so. So, I'm going to try again and see what happens!