I used to love TV. I had my favorite shows...I anxiously anticipated season premiers, sweeps weeks and finales. Now, I am left feeling irritated by those same shows. Shows that I have invested several years of my viewing time into.
For example....Alias. This is by far my and J's favorite show. Sadly this year they have decided to reduce it to a shell of its former self. They killed off the love interest (Michael Vaughn) and now Sydney is five/six months pregnant (like Jennifer Garner in real life) and is still fighting the bad guys in search for Michael's killer. Last night I looked at J and said "do they HONESTLY expect me to believe that a five month along pregnant women is able to book it up 10 flights of stairs?" "I could barely make it up five stairs without having to stop and catch my breath!" It's like the writers forgot the audience they were writing for. Most people who watch Alias are my age. They moved it to Thursday night at 7 pm - right when most of us are putting our kids to bed! It used to be such a smart, well-written show, enjoyable to watch and anticipate. Now, we tape it and sometimes watch two episodes at once, fast forwarding through the stupid new characters and plot lines.
You may think I have issues with TV. That maybe I should be living in the real world instead. But, I like to relax and live someone else's life for a couple hours a week. I'm just so disappointed in all the shows I watch this year. They are boring, tired and the same. YUCK!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
yelling
As I said before, God is really teaching me a lot lately. I can barely recover from one thing, and the next lesson is upon me.
The newest lesson deals with my attitude/reactions with my kids. I tend to yell A LOT and sometimes I don't even realize it. Yesterday, Cais stepped on my foot in the store and I calmly told her that it hurt and to watch where she was going. She paused, looked at me and said "Mom, why didn't you yell at me?" OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!!!! I just told her that I was trying to stop that and we went on with our day. But, I realized that she is getting to the age that things like that don't just roll off of her. They can pierce and wound her tender little heart.
We went to the zoo today and had a great time. We met my sister-in-law, Chris and two new friends, Nicole and Sarah. It was 82 degrees and beautiful. I purposefully tried to NOT yell today and to my relief I didn't. Even when Sam spilled the water bottle and just stared at it spilling all of the water for the day out, even when Cais was fighting with Niall, even when Sam was disobeying at the playground! But the most telling thing to me was that my kids were relaxed, calm and had a good time the entire day. Even Wil was a perfect angel.
Cais is such a huge helper for me. She is such a great kid and I love her so much. She loves to help get Wil ready and can even change his diapers when they are wet. She is learning so much and just loves being with mom. We are going to have a girls night w/Wil included on Friday with Chris and Charys. The boys are going off on a camping trip Friday/Saturday. I'm actually looking forward to the weekend!
Tonight is PowerBall! I have to confess that J bought three tickets.....what are the chances????? HA!
The newest lesson deals with my attitude/reactions with my kids. I tend to yell A LOT and sometimes I don't even realize it. Yesterday, Cais stepped on my foot in the store and I calmly told her that it hurt and to watch where she was going. She paused, looked at me and said "Mom, why didn't you yell at me?" OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!!!! I just told her that I was trying to stop that and we went on with our day. But, I realized that she is getting to the age that things like that don't just roll off of her. They can pierce and wound her tender little heart.
We went to the zoo today and had a great time. We met my sister-in-law, Chris and two new friends, Nicole and Sarah. It was 82 degrees and beautiful. I purposefully tried to NOT yell today and to my relief I didn't. Even when Sam spilled the water bottle and just stared at it spilling all of the water for the day out, even when Cais was fighting with Niall, even when Sam was disobeying at the playground! But the most telling thing to me was that my kids were relaxed, calm and had a good time the entire day. Even Wil was a perfect angel.
Cais is such a huge helper for me. She is such a great kid and I love her so much. She loves to help get Wil ready and can even change his diapers when they are wet. She is learning so much and just loves being with mom. We are going to have a girls night w/Wil included on Friday with Chris and Charys. The boys are going off on a camping trip Friday/Saturday. I'm actually looking forward to the weekend!
Tonight is PowerBall! I have to confess that J bought three tickets.....what are the chances????? HA!
Friday, October 14, 2005
Bed Twister
2:19 am - I am laying in bed wondering what in the world I ever did to deserve having to sleep with my children! I have NEVER advocated the family bed, but yet here I am wide awake with one kid in my bed and the other two coming in and out! I am terrified of sleeping alone, so with J gone last night, I decided to let Cais sleep with me. Sam and Wil decided that they would rather sleep in Cais' bed instead of their own. So, with everyone fast asleep, I went to bed, fervently hoping that I could actually sleep.
WRONG!
About 2:15 am, Sam falls out of Cais' bed and comes crying into my room. He wants to sleep with us. So, being the "good" mom , I let him. About 2 min. later I am totally regretting that decision and decide to move him into his own bed. That works for one minute until he had to go to the bathroom and wakes me up to take him. Wil in the meantime is having the coughing fit of a lifetime and Cais decides that she would like her body on her side and her legs on mine! ARGH!
Back to 2:19 am - I am tired. Tired of never getting enough sleep, tired of playing bed twister with my kids, tired of J having to be in Anthem.....Of course HE gets to sleep in his OWN bed, blissfully unaware of the havoc his children are wreaking with my sleep! Bed Twister is a game NOT for the faint of heart. It requires a great deal of skill and patience. I personally have NO patience, so you can understand how this is all going for me!
Note: I finally fell asleep around 2:45. Wore up at 6:30 to get myself and the kids ready. Got Cais off to school and called J. Turns out he had no sleep, as he worked ALL NIGHT! So, I guess I can't complain.
WRONG!
About 2:15 am, Sam falls out of Cais' bed and comes crying into my room. He wants to sleep with us. So, being the "good" mom , I let him. About 2 min. later I am totally regretting that decision and decide to move him into his own bed. That works for one minute until he had to go to the bathroom and wakes me up to take him. Wil in the meantime is having the coughing fit of a lifetime and Cais decides that she would like her body on her side and her legs on mine! ARGH!
Back to 2:19 am - I am tired. Tired of never getting enough sleep, tired of playing bed twister with my kids, tired of J having to be in Anthem.....Of course HE gets to sleep in his OWN bed, blissfully unaware of the havoc his children are wreaking with my sleep! Bed Twister is a game NOT for the faint of heart. It requires a great deal of skill and patience. I personally have NO patience, so you can understand how this is all going for me!
Note: I finally fell asleep around 2:45. Wore up at 6:30 to get myself and the kids ready. Got Cais off to school and called J. Turns out he had no sleep, as he worked ALL NIGHT! So, I guess I can't complain.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
life - fact or fiction
I've been going through a huge period of growth in the last month. Learning to truly depend on God and to listen to what He's saying. Not always the easiest thing for me, as I don't really like to depend on anyone except myself. Personality flaw......I know.
Anyway, today at BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) the speaker was talking about having faith. We are studying Genesis and the Principal she stated was "When God says "no" it is NOT up for discussion." "If God is withholding something it is not His best for you. Will you trust Him with what you can't have?" This is something that I really stuggle with. I want what I want NOW! And I think that most of us are like that. I don't like to be told "no."
With J starting his business I feel like I am learning this Principal day by day. I CAN'T know the future and I CAN'T control the situation. I never thought about it in regards to not getting something you want means it's not God's best for you. Makes you think......
Is my life fact or fiction? Do I look at life realistically in terms of the blessings that I have from the Lord or do I let the enemy lie to me? I think this is a big turning point in my relationship with the Lord. I need to stop loving the things of the world and start looking AT the world with godly eyes.
I'm fasting from chocolate in order to help my sister-in-law keep up her not smoking pledge. I figure this is my first step into being real with myself. I can say all day that I'll pray for her....while I'm eating my chocolate cake! HA! It's quite another to walk the road with her and give up my own addiction. She put it best when she said, "How would you feel if you knew that you could NEVER have another piece of chocolate again? Could you do it?" This is how she feels about smoking. And, since my brother started smoking again, it's even harder. But, while I was talking to her I realized that everyone has their own addiction. For me, it's chocolate. Sad to say, it is my comfort. I turn to chocolate instead of to God whenever the chips (no pun intended) are down. And that is truly the nature of addiction, isn't it?
I'm learning....the hard way (as always)....but I'm still learning!
Anyway, today at BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) the speaker was talking about having faith. We are studying Genesis and the Principal she stated was "When God says "no" it is NOT up for discussion." "If God is withholding something it is not His best for you. Will you trust Him with what you can't have?" This is something that I really stuggle with. I want what I want NOW! And I think that most of us are like that. I don't like to be told "no."
With J starting his business I feel like I am learning this Principal day by day. I CAN'T know the future and I CAN'T control the situation. I never thought about it in regards to not getting something you want means it's not God's best for you. Makes you think......
Is my life fact or fiction? Do I look at life realistically in terms of the blessings that I have from the Lord or do I let the enemy lie to me? I think this is a big turning point in my relationship with the Lord. I need to stop loving the things of the world and start looking AT the world with godly eyes.
I'm fasting from chocolate in order to help my sister-in-law keep up her not smoking pledge. I figure this is my first step into being real with myself. I can say all day that I'll pray for her....while I'm eating my chocolate cake! HA! It's quite another to walk the road with her and give up my own addiction. She put it best when she said, "How would you feel if you knew that you could NEVER have another piece of chocolate again? Could you do it?" This is how she feels about smoking. And, since my brother started smoking again, it's even harder. But, while I was talking to her I realized that everyone has their own addiction. For me, it's chocolate. Sad to say, it is my comfort. I turn to chocolate instead of to God whenever the chips (no pun intended) are down. And that is truly the nature of addiction, isn't it?
I'm learning....the hard way (as always)....but I'm still learning!
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